The Red Dragons 2

"Maybe in the captains room..."

im so sorry

"Maybe"

for what

Break in

existing

0.0

dont play a victim it wont work

"WHat"

im not

"Is this ok?"

than you have nothingti be sorry for

"Yeah it will do." Takes it.

I do. I'm constantly fucking up things with you and it makes me feel horrible and I'm sorry for it because no matter how much I try or at least think I'm trying it never gets any better and its just terrible and I'm sorry for it. Yes you made me feel sad. But I don't feel like a victim for it. I don't blame you. I don't want you to feel sorry for me because you shouldn't and I don't deserve yours and anybody else's pity. I don't care if you upset me or make me feel like shit or hurt my feelings none of it changes that I do love you and will no matter what. You're the one good thing in my life One. Nothing else. I have no other friends. I'm distant to my family. My brother straight up tells me day in and day out that I have no friends am worthless and should kill myself. I have no talents, no real interests, no future. You are the only thing that really means anything to me. And I can't even get that right. So yes, I do have something to be sorry about. A lot to be sorry about.

Even when you are angry at me and hate me and make me wish I'd never been born I'll still keep loving you cos that is how important you are to me. This feels like the worst Christmas ever just because you are not with me right now. Fuck Christmas. I've barely touched my gifts cos all I can think about it you. Mostly. Also bad thoughts which will not be spoken of.

I'm not mad. I'm not upset with you. I am perfectly calm. I am filled with remorse and hate for myself but its not your fault. I deserve it. I deserve all the things that happen in my life and I know it. My friends didn't just stop being my friends for no reason. Everything happens for a reason. God, karma, fate, luck I dunno. I just accept this is how I'm meant to be.

I can't remember what the point of this message was any more my head hurts too much. First I think I was trying to apologize but now it's more like I'm just trying to clear my own thoughts. Like type out what I'm too afraid to say out loud. Sorry about that too. You're just the only one I trust to hear it. Even if you might just get angry about it or laugh. You're the only one I can trust. You're the only one I can't fake a smile to and say everything is okay.

This is running a bit long I guess I got carried away I have a lot more thoughts but they're probably better off just left forgotten. So Merry Christmas Karina, I'll always love you no matter what. I won't kiss seeing as you don't like. I'm going to go cry and eat until I get sick so not sure when or if I'll work up the confidence to come back. You're the best. Don't ever think otherwise no matter what.

"Hmmm..."

im sorry im such a hot head i better just leavr sorry

Steal telescope and go to deck "Lets check out those islands."

Don't. Stop. Relax. You're fine. You're more than fine, you are perfect, okay? You're not to be held responsible for who I am.

"Okay!"

but u said i make u feel bad tht means i must leave im sorry for being horrible i wish you luck in your life

Puts up the telescope for her "Tell me what you say."

You make me feel bad because I am bad. Bad people should feel bad. I'm bad. Not you. You're good. Kind. Sweet. Like these nice sweets you sent me. You're not horrible and please don't leave.

"Ummmm...a seagul"

but ue not bad

"You're looking at the sky." Points it near the islands "How about now?"

Neither are you so don't think you are

"I seeeeee...aaaa.....Wolf!"those are palm trees

mmm.enjoying your presents

"Describe it." Can't see so doesn't know

Not been using them much but they are nice

"Green triangly bad"

i see thats good

"....green triangle? Are you sure that's an animal?"

What have you been doing today?

"Yeah"

playinf games and sulking

"...describe more."

Sorry for making you sad.. what games? Did you have fun?

"sharp teeth...HE JUST YAO"a frog ate a big fly :3

Sims 2 University,no

"What? I have Yao right here!"

Why not fun?

"His brother than"

Felt bad all day

YOU ARE MY ONLY FAMILY

Are you feeling any better now?

"Mom than?.....I though Candy Ass was mon though"

a bit

DEMONS DO NOT HAVE "PARENTS" IN THE SENSE HUMANS DO, WE ARE SPAWNED AS EGGS AND ABANDONED WE NEVER MEET THE CARRIERS

Please cheer up you don't deserve to be so down *hugs*